Friday, 29 June 2018

Bye, bye year eleven!

Yes now Berland
To be completely honest with you: it's only just set in how much I'm going to miss school. There were so many rules and procedures that drove me to hate school a lot of the time, but I also met some people that I struggled saying goodbye to. As I write this, it's Friday night, and our prom was yesterday. I'm trying not to cry. Our last day was terrible. It lead me to believe that I would never want to go back again. We were ushered out of school straight after our last exam on the 15th of June, without having said goodbye to anyone or sign shirts. It just felt like they were finished with us. Bye, bye year eleven! But, now I feel different. Our prom was beautiful, and everybody was relaxed (and gorgeous!!). We had a chance to reminisce on old memories and talk to the teachers we hadn't seen in two weeks. Bearing in mind I had some teachers for multiple hours a day, everyday, it meant a lot. 

I saw a different side to the teachers I didn't think I had a lot in common with. They genuinely wanted to know what I'd been upto, what I had planned, and told me how nice I looked. It meant so much. The thing that made me the most teary-eyed was knowing that two of my teachers had voted me for Prom Queen. These were teachers who truly knew me for who I am. There's no amount of makeup, or jewelry or coats of nail polish that could change that, which shows that true beauty comes from inside. Letting go of people is probably the thing I struggle with most. It's something I'm learning, but these teachers sure haven't made it easy haha!


I've left year eleven with so many beautiful memories and know that even if I never see these people again, they will have a place in my heart forever. I am so, so grateful to have left school feeling content, if a little nostalgic, knowing that I can tell my kids that YES, they do have to go to prom :))

Wishing you all a long and happy summer holidays,
Marti xxx

Friday, 22 June 2018

Filey Seafront

"There is pleasure in the pathless woods, there is rapture in the lonely shore, there is society where none intrudes, by the deep sea, and music in its roar; I love not Man the less, but Nature more."
-Lord Byron 

A few pictures from Sunday :)
All my love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 15 June 2018

What's new with you?

I'm hoping that as I start typing, things will start to unravel and form some sort of sense. I'm counting on it, but I'm not sure how confident I feel in my ability to string a sentence together. Here goes...

Man, things have been crazy. I've just finished my GCSEs, which I am so,so grateful to be over. I've been sitting mocks since I started year eleven in September, and have gotten used to spending any free time doing revision. I've gotten to the point where I've almost forgotten what I like doing haha. I had routine, and it worked. It's strange breaking it, but it's also one of the most liberating things in the world. It's crazy to be able to do things without worrying about many equations I can remember. I like it a lot. 

Things have been so hectic that I can't even remember if I told you that I'm starting an apprenticeship in August. I applied in January and was offered training at a travel agent after two interviews. I'm very excited but also a little scared. My prom is next Thursday, and my sister's graduation is soon afterwards. I'm taking my little bro for McDonalds :) My cat keeps stalking my hamster, which is terrifying, but I'm hoping they'll make friends. I'm still working at the stationery shop until I start at the travel agent, as well as volunteering at the library and museums. I'm really hoping that I'll still be able to keep my blog updated, even if it's just a little word vomit every few weeks. I just feel like everything's happening so fast, and even if it's leaving me a little windswept, it's exciting. 

I'm in the process of writing some better quality posts, but here's a little fill in :)
Lots of love,
Marti xxx