Friday, 25 May 2018

Exam season

A little poem about exams :)


Over eating,
Evening sleeping,
Lesson cramming,
Summer planning,
Early morning,
Chain-yawning, 
Cancelled plans,
Inked up hands, 
Hushing teachers,
Over-sleepers,
Emptied pockets,
Unwrapped lockets,
Snapping pencils,
Abusing stencils,
Plastic seats,
Funny tweets,
Wonky tables,
Torn up labels.
Months of waiting,
Confidence flaking,
Just a number,
Worth it...I wonder?

Hope you enjoy the unnecessary picture from Padstow :)
Lots of love, 
Marti xxx

Friday, 18 May 2018

"You can't really love them"

I feel as though the way I perceive the word love is different to the way a lot of other people perceive love.

I say that I love people a lot. I say that I love my family, I say that I love my friends, I say that I love people who make me smile; man, I even say that I love people I hardly know at all.

Does that take away from my meaning? Not at all. I believe that to be so loving is a quality that so many people are missing. I'm told so often that I can't love people without knowing them, but I ask them why not? The world is so full of anger and hatred; why shouldn't I fill a little of it with love? To love somebody doesn't mean that you are totally in love with everything about them. It simply means that you see them for who they really are. You see their true, inner goodness and are infatuated with that.

Lots of love, 
Marti xxx

Friday, 11 May 2018

If I was starting highschool again

I was talking to one of my little friends earlier (love you lots, Lysi) and she told me that she wanted to do more. This made me smile. It got me thinking about my younger self and what I would do differently if I could turn back time. I love the way things have turned out, and strongly believe that every decision I made along the way contributed to the place I am now. However, for the sake of this post, I am going to ignore that and tell you straight from the heart how I would approach the first few years of secondary school now that I'm a few weeks off finishing. 
  1. I would sign up to every extra-curricular activity the school was offering. Netball? Samba? Science? I would sign up to each and every one. I think that when I was in my first year, I was convinced that everybody already knew how to do these things and that I would look silly. That is not true in the slightest, and even if it is; you're going to make some pretty groovy friends in the process!
  2. I would learn to play an instrument. Pretty similar to point one, and something I wish I did when I didn't have the commitment of exams
  3. I'd keep up with the swimming lessons. Galas seemed lit ;)
  4. I'd join youth groups outside of school. I had no idea how many there were, and am I strong believer in making friends in all kinds of places
  5. I'd not put too much pressure on myself to make close friends. Friendships grow with time, and you're not doing anything wrong if somebody doesn't call you their best friend. 
  6. I'd relax. Life is good and nothing matters as much as you think it does :)
All my love, 
Elder Marti :p xxx


Friday, 4 May 2018

We're not the same

A quick heads up- this is going to be a very quick post and I'm not sure how much sense it will make. I just need to get some things out of my head and hey, where better to share them? :) Pretty sure I took this pic on the way to Calais when everybody else was sleeping on the French trip in case you're wondering :p

I feel like I learn so much every day. Looking back on the person I was last month, last week or even yesterday is just so strange. It blows my mind how much we grow and develop
 as people in such a short space of time, but I digress. 

Last week, the main thing I picked up on was how different we all are. I'm doing NCS this July, which I'm super excited about. A lot of people don't understand why. They don't see why I'd want to spend my summer camping with strangers. To me: it's an adventure. Sure, it's scary, but that's what makes me even more excited. One of my friends said that he doesn't want to do it because he won't know anyone. I said to him that we'd make loads of friends. This is where I think our views differ significantly. He told me it takes years to make a friend. I was puzzled. 

I told him about a camp I went on a few years ago. We were camping in Durham, and I didn't know all that many people. After a long coach trip, I was told that I was in a tent with two other girls. One of which I knew from other camps and the other I'd never met. It took one night  for us to become friends. We fell asleep wrapped up in sleeping bags next to each other and all woke up hugging for warmth. That's the kind of friendship that just happens, and I know that there is a reason for it. I'm not in contact with either of them anymore, but I have some of the best memories with them. Friends aren't always going to be with you for life, but they'll be a part of it. And that's what matters.

That's just the way I see things, but again, I've realised how different we all are. That's the beauty of things :)
Lots of love, 
Marti xxx


Friday, 27 April 2018

'Shoving your faith down someone's throat'

I find this concept interesting. 
It's something that so many people are passionate about, and by passionate I mean angry. It's one of the reasons why I sometimes bite my tongue in situations where faith comes up- simply because I don't want to argue with somebody over something so close to my heart.

My faith is something that has been shaped massively by outside influences. Does this mean that other people have shoved their views down my throat? A little, sometimes. Do I resent them for it? Not even in the slightest.

A massive part of religion involves sharing the word with others. It's so important, for people of that religion, that other people have the opportunity to have a relationship with their God. Christians, for example, believe that God craves this relationship with others, and asks us to communicate this with others. I think this is where the misconception comes from.

I was in Leeds a little while ago with one of my friends and we saw a man wearing a sandwich board that read: 'Trust in Jesus Christ and you will be saved'. That man could either have been wearing the board because he'd been paid to spread the message, or because he truly believed it. Either way, the intention this beautiful. 

I can imagine that the man got a negative reaction from a lot of people, which I completely understand. I often feel overwhelmed when I'm approached by people of other religions who want to share their word with me. Next time this happens to you, I ask you to approach the situation with an open mind. These people are not trying to shove their faith down your throat, they are loving you and want you to be saved. Whether you agree with them or not, be just and let them speak. I think that's a message we can all carry forward.

Lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 20 April 2018

School isn't everything

We are not robots. Our sole purpose is not to churn out grades. 

There is so much pressure on us to do well at school. So much. I often find myself wondering why the system is still the way it is and why the education system leaves me feeling so unhappy. The truth is that we have so much more substance than numbers. Our value should not be purely based on our academic ability and we should be allowed to have a life outside of school. This is something that I have a huge opinion on. Teachers tell us that when exams roll around, we must drop any other activities. Friends of mine tell me that they're not starting a job, or starting something they love until after exams. It makes me feel so sad. 

If any other community, say the places I volunteer at, told me to drop all other activities so that I can focus solely on that, everyone would be outraged. School should be no different. I am motivated to do my best in my exams. I will revise and put every piece of effort I have into them, but I will not be asked to put them ahead of everything else. A sheet of paper with some letters and numbers on will not benefit me any more than expanding my faith will, than learning to be kinder to others will, than spending time with others will.

School, you have some thought to put into your system. How about we all take a GCSE in kindness, morality and communication huh? 

Not all of us were made to tell you how to use the cosine rule.

Lots of love,
Marti xxx



Friday, 13 April 2018

Staying Away

Drama.

It's everywhere, whether that be in the form of tension, misunderstanding, or resentment; it can be really hard to avoid.


It's something that, especially in the school environment, people seem to thrive off, and that they seemingly grow closer from. I'm writing this post because I really don't understand. It's at a point now where people will start telling me about their arguments and I will just cut them off. I'm not a savage- stay with me haha, I just can't bring myself to understand or want to be any part of it.

I think a lot of it comes down to perspective and morals. We all stand in different places when it comes to what we believe, and that is totally okay- beautiful in fact. I accept that arguments are sometimes unavoidable. I accept that if somebody hurts you, you're going to want to retaliate. What I don't understand is the need to purposely hurt other people. It's against everything that we're taught from a young age. We know in ourselves how painful it is to be treated badly; so why are we inflicting that pain on others?

I think that sometimes I distance myself too much from everything that's going on. I love people to pieces, which is why I can't bear to hurt or be hurt by them. Whenever tension arises, I back away. I feel like sometimes it distances my relationships with people because their arguments seem to bring them closer to people when they've made up. The flaw in this is that the cycle continues and more pain arises.

I just wanted to share my thoughts with you beautiful people, and maybe learn a little more about why people crave drama so much. If you have any thoughts on the subject, please share them because I'd love to listen.

I found a YouTube video that reiterates what I'm saying in the context of faith. Maybe people fill their lives with drama because their craving something bigger...just a thought ;)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-SNRBQsHa8

Lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 6 April 2018

What I've Learnt this Easter

It's been awhile.

Where I live; we broke up for Easter last Thursday and are currently fishing the first week of the holidays. I planned a blog post for last week, but didn't feel like the post had enough umph. I was posting just for the sake of it, and that didn't feel right. So here I am, one week later, sharing with you what I've learnt through a week of beautiful chaos. Enjoy!

I started my Easter after work on Saturday night by going to my friend's confirmation. It was a beautiful service, and really brought the meaning of Easter to my heart. What I loved most was seeing the Cathedral full of people showing their support to friends and family confirming their faith.

We had a meal on Sunday with my family and visited the grandparents, which of course meant an egg hunt ;) I went to an evening service later, followed by deep meaningful chats over ice cream. You really do learn the most over ice cream ;)

In summary: I've learnt that it's the little things that matter most. We often measure life in years, when really it's measured in moments. 

Something to think about.
All my love,
Marti xxx

P.S. Meet Donovan!

Friday, 16 March 2018

Back to Basics


Today I decided to tell you a little too much about myself. Enjoy :)

I doodled this at drama, but I think it looks pretty sick















  1. I listen to my headphones way too loud
  2. I don't use Snapchat
  3. I keep the tea bag in my tea
  4. I always use long spoons
  5. I have a Blue Peter badge
  6. I wrote to the Queen when I was seven 
  7. I once dislocated my leg playing Wii bowling
  8. I've never lost a game of musical chairs
  9. I'm the second youngest
  10. My favourite ladybird book was The Gigantic Turnip
  11. I can make an origami T-Shirt
  12. I played laser tag this one time and failed miserably
  13. I've always had a pet
  14. I used to have nightmares about Homer Simpson
  15. I still sleepwalk sometimes
  16. My favourite food is sweetcorn
  17. I broke my first phone by sitting on it
  18. I've always wanted to be an agony aunt
  19. I have really random and vivid memories
  20. I've never dyed my hair
  21. I've always wanted to be angry enough for slam poetry
  22. My favourite childhood TV show was 6teen 
  23. My name backwards is Itram Gnillets
  24. I don't mind exams all that much
  25. I've surprised myself reading these back through :P
Lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 9 March 2018

Where you go to school and why it doesn't matter

I'm trying not to get too passionate about this before I end up upsetting someone (it happens more than you'd think haha!)

I go to a northern state school. There are only two secondary schools where I live, one being a selective grammar school and the other being an academy. Some of my friends go to my school, some go to grammar school, others go to school outside of the city and some are moving from one to the other for sixth form. I think it's beautiful- the amount we learn from each other though our differences. Recently though, I've found this difference less attractive. 

I'm proud of my school. It's small, it can be very strict, and yes- the teachers have walkie talkies. Sometimes, it can feel a little like a prison. But do you know what? It's Ofsted Outstanding. We have some incredible teachers who will do everything they can to support you. We have trips abroad, performances and get praised for our achievements- just like any good school. 

I hear things like 'I always feel scared when people from the academy are walking towards me', 'no offence but I hate people at the academy', 'they're chavs' and 'that's good for the academy' way too much. It's pointless, because in the end, our exam results aren't going to differ all that much.

There's this stereotype that people who go to my school are stupid. Let me tell you this: two people who are on my table in maths are predicted a level 9. Another friend of mine continuously gets high marks in science mocks. I'm going to embarrass my sister now by saying that she left this school (before it even became an academy) with fourteen GCSE passes and four A Levels. A test you take at the end of primary school is the worst indication of intelligence I can imagine- especially knowing that lots of people have tutors to help them pass. I love being at a school where everyone is welcome and that's not something that's going to change.

Lots of love, 
Marti xxx
P.S. Happy 125th post!

Friday, 2 March 2018

The Balance

Bit of a different one today, but it's something that's been sitting in my mind for a long time.
The Girl on the Train and one of my sister's bookmarks- very necessary

Most of the time we can have either as much or as little going on in our lives as we like. Sometimes we're not so lucky and end up overloaded with responsibilities we wouldn't have chosen, and other times we're forced to stay put. Where do we find the balance?

It's a tricky one, and as my Physics teacher once said after giving us homework for over Christmas and instructing us to eat too many mince pies: "If you ever find the balance, write a book on it- you'll make millions!" Personally, I'm still trying to figure it out, but have found a few ways to not get too overloaded. 

Don't put all your eggs in one basket

An odd phrase I've never really understood, but one that I find necessary in most of day to day life. If you're always surrounded by the same people, the same values, the same cultures and the same beliefs- how are you going to learn and grow as an individual? As human beings, we're very susceptible of getting into a rut, which means we do the same things over and over again. Mix things up, say yes to new things! You'll be grateful for it.

Try not to let your mind dwell on things you can't control

It's easy to say yet tricky to act on. Say you got some results back for an exam and they're not as good as you'd hoped- this is not a reason to beat yourself up! Take this as an opportunity to improve and make amends. There are so many more important things than one mistake.

Schedule time for you!

It's easy to get wound up with commitments, projects and helping others, but if you're not leaving time to care for yourself it'll only make you poorly. Take time out, breathe and let yourself know what a good job you're doing. You've got this gurl!

I hope this helped, even just a little!
Lots of love, 
Marti xxx

Friday, 23 February 2018

What's new Scooby Doo?

Just a real quickie :)

 It's the first week back after half term, which has left me feeling very all over the place. We only have two weeks left till our next set of mocks, which is crazy because we've literally just had some! Today I went to sixth form for the day to see what it would be like, which is an hour away and is so big in comparison to my school! I met lots of people and managed to get very lost haha. I enjoyed the subjects, but I'm still not sure what option I'd make if I get the apprenticeship. There's an exchange programme for French which looks interesting, and the food was awesome.

snip, snip, snip!
Other than that: I've started uploading to Deviantart, which I reckon you should all check out ;) and had a haircut! I'm trying to will myself to read more, but it's not really happening. I've started on John Green's new book, and will *hopefully* do a review when I've finished.

What have you been upto?
Marti xxxx 

Friday, 9 February 2018

We attempted brownies..


Recipe sourced from www.cookbakeeat.com
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Serves: 12
Hoping you all appreciate my collage skills ;)
Ingredients
  • 185g Dark Chocolate
  • 185g Butter
  • 85g Plain Flour
  • 40g Cocoa Powder
  • 3 Eggs
  • 275g Caster Sugar
  • 6 Cadbury Creme Eggs
Instructions
  1. To begin, preheat the oven to 180 and gas mark 4.
  1. Melt the butter and chocolate together in a bowl over a pan of hot water.
  2. Once melted, leave to cool.
  3. Mix your eggs and sugar using an electric whisk. This takes time and your mixture needs to double in size and thicken up. Your mix should also be pale in colour.
  4. Add you egg and sugar mix to your cooled chocolate mixture. TIP: Make sure your chocolate mixture is at least luke warm, or cooler. If the chocolate mixture is too hot it will cook the eggs!
  5. Sift in the flour and cocoa powder and fold everything together. TIP: Take your time and be gentle :)Pour everything into your brownie tray and cook for about 20 mins.
  6. Whilst that's cooking, start to cut your creme eggs in half. This is tricky and doesn't always turn out very neat, but don't worry, it will still taste great. If you heat our nice in hot water before every slice it may also help.
  7. After 20 mins cooking, take out your brownies. They should be looking quite cooked around the edge but still quite soft in the middle. Place your eggs on top of the half cooked brownies and gently press down. I found I could fit 3 across each row.
  8. Bake for a further 10 - 15 mins or until cooked through
    out.
  9. Once cooked, leave to cool before cutting. I found these brownies taste amazing warmed up and served with vanilla ice cream!
Lots of love, 
Marti xxx

P.S. If you make these feel free to send pictures as I'd love to see how they turn out!

Friday, 2 February 2018

Unnecessary

Unnecessary photo of Ziggs and I
It's been a very busy year- especially to say it's only February! Every time I sit down to start writing; I realise that I have about five minutes before I need to be out again, leaving my mind a little jumbled. I wanted to write something beautiful to make up for my slacking, but the best we're getting right now is a word vomit. We do our best :)


Ella's wedding in January
 I'm at that stage of having a cold where everything just seems that bit gloomier. It's not a very nice place. I was making a cup of tea earlier and it felt as though it took so much energy. I'm also getting about twelve hours of sleep haha.

My big sister Ella got married at the start of the year and my brother engaged too. I've had my second set of mocks, which went okay, but I'm really not enjoying school all that much. 

I've been invited to an interview for an apprenticeship at a travel agency, which I'm really looking forward to and I'm also decided on which sixth form I'd go to otherwise. I'm feeling very torn between the two options, but I'll just have to see how the interview goes. 

NYE with Leah- looking far
more tipsy than I was (honest!)
We're working on an extract of Macbeth at drama, with yours truly being everybody's favourite equivocator. I've started going to some other youth groups with Leah (her blog's pretty groovy), which have definitely filled my week :)

I've been alternating between the library and work on saturdays, which has meant I'm always doing something different and meeting new people. A lot of the people I volunteer with are older than me, but I like that. It's a welcome break from school haha :)

I'm not giving you any context on this one haha
I've signed up for NCS over summer, as well as Brighton for a week with my family. I think it's always good to have things to look forward to, especially when exams are the only word you hear at school!

 It's half term next week, marking fifteen weeks left of year eleven. It's not all that much when you look at it like that, but I'm honestly so sick of it. I'm trying to make the best of it, but it's tricky when the sky is so beautiful and the lesson really is not!

I've got lots planned for over half term, including the Save the Children sale (big jumble sale, more later), stacking shelves and not having a moment to myself. That's the way we like it :)

I've been really grateful to have a handful of sparkly people in my life who have made January that bit more bearable. Whether it be Kim Woodburn memes or braindead nonsense, I love you all dearly.


All my love, Marti xxxx
P.S. My photos got featured on Cathy's blog!

Friday, 26 January 2018

Friday, 19 January 2018

Dear my little, baby brother

Here I am either giving you a hug or stealing your toys. Sisterly love.


Dear my little baby brother,

You're not so little anymore- you're nearly as tall as me in fact. When you were born, I sat at Gran's dinner table and drew my princess, baby sister. She had beautiful, long hair and wore, wait for it, pretty, pink dresses. I  showed her off to all my friends, but wouldn't let them get too close because she was all mine. 

And then you came. A phone call on Gran's landline told me that, in fact, my baby princess was a prince. I was disappointed- I'm not going to lie. I felt robbed of a friend, or more specifically, a dress up doll.

Your eyes were sticky and you made funny noises. Your hair stuck up in all the wrong places and none of your clothes were pink. Nonetheless,
I loved my little brother.

You got a little older and never objected to my dress up games. I suppose now is the time I should apologise for getting you to do a catwalk in the clothes from Gran's trunk, but I know you loved it really.

When you came into reception, I made sure my friends and I were the little helpers. I'd spend by break time sharpening pencils just so that I could sit with you in assembelies.

You may not notice it all the time, but
I love you very much. These days, you're too cool to hang out with me, but I know the reason you like pink so much is down to me.

All my love,
Your big sister Marti xxx



Friday, 12 January 2018

Health and Happiness: a mood board











Some happy words to cleanse the soul.
All images sourced from https://www.pinterest.co.uk/martistelling/health-and-happiness/ 
Lots of love, 
Marti xxx

Monday, 1 January 2018

Pushing Yourself- Guest Post by Leah

After reviewing my new year’s resolutions post from the start of this year, I realised that I really need to aim to make my goals for this year a little more realistic to achieve for 2018.


Now that I’m in year eleven, my attitude towards school has changed quite a lot in the way that I am taking lessons more seriously and doing revision and am really enjoying pretty much all of my lessons. This year is also the year where I have realised that my previous habits (no revision apart from what I’m made to do in class and the possible brief flick through my notes 30 seconds before the test itself) may not be the best idea anymore because although it has worked in the past, I probably won’t be able to wing a test on everything I’ve covered over the past year and a half. So my aim is to make notes on everything I have covered since the start of last year (year ten) with the aim of achieving my goal that I have had set for myself for a while now, which is to walk out of all my exams with Bs as a minimum grade (which are 6s in the new grading system).

I am also going to aim to take better care of myself both physically and mentally: physically in the way that I am going to try avoid junk foods a little more and aim for more healthier alternatives and also stop staying up late watching things on my tablet as I always end up regretting it the next day when I can barely keep my eyes open. Mentally I am going to try do the best I can in terms of my school work to make sure I meet deadlines on time so I don’t stress about missing them, causing myself to have stress headaches most days of the week! I am also going to do this by making a better effort at keeping my room tidy to some degree so I don’t lose important work/revision in the mess, and stress myself out further.

Although this is all school related, I know and have known for a while that I need to get things under control a little more at school and with my school work in order to clear my mind and help myself make it out of my exams in one piece, with my social life and friendships still intact.


My goals for the new year have been made a little more manageable this time round, and I am currently on the road to achieving these with high levels of success. My advice would be to think about what you’ll be able to achieve within the new year and what will benefit you and perhaps your friends and family this year.

Hope you have a great new year!