Friday, 27 October 2017

Dear eleven year old Marti

Dear slightly older but still little Marti,

Things are a little confusing right now and your bubble is beginning to burst.The world is showing itself as a dark and horrible place and it's bringing you down with it. Marti, this is life. It's full of dark and horrible things, but you just have to look for the light.

There are wonderful people and things out there, you're just not searching hard enough. Some of the people you call friends aren't worth your time, but that's something you'll learn later. Put all your energy into your own happiness Marti and it will lead to a very happy place. 

The next few years are going to be difficult for you, but I have faith that you'll come out even more sparkly. Everybody is struggling, so be patient. Some final tips: don't cut your hair and love yourself as much as you love others. You are much a wonderful soul and you need to believe it. This webcam toy habit also really has to stop Marti, it's very embarrassing haha.

I've got your back kid ;)

Friday, 20 October 2017

"I'm a pusher Cady"

I hate revision.
I thought I'd put that out there before anybody gets the wrong impression. I also don't do brilliantly at school. There are some subjects that come easier to me, but also some that I really can't get my head around. 

It was our last day of term today and we got our reports. Although I'm doing okay; I think I could do a lot better. My teachers seem to expect me to do 'okay' and aren't really pushing me to do any better. I've realised that I need to be my own pusher.

I feel as though I'm scrambling around in the deep end, trying to keep myself from drowning. I'm predicted Cs or 5s  in most subjects, which puts me at the bottom of the higher tier. Those grades are still good, but I know in myself that I can do better. It's so easy to get caught up in a bubble of your own thoughts and not pay enough attention to the things that are screaming for your attention.

I'm not spending enough time  revising the subjects I find difficult, which I think is the main problem. That's why I've started scheduling my revision and prioritising weaker subjects. It's so important to figure out what works for YOU and to look after yourself. I'm telling myself this as much as I'm telling you as it's so easy to let your health slip when you're focused on something else.

Here's my schedule for tomorrow, just for some insight. I've tried to include a mixture of different subjects and formats of questions, whilst keeping breaks at an optimum.

·     Chemistry revision sheet
·         Break 
·         Physics revision quiz
·         English revision quiz
·         Break 
·         Physics exam style question
·         Break
·         English Literature exam style question

 I hope that this post has been of some use to somebody and that you all have a lovely half term!

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 13 October 2017

Reasons why I smiled today

  1. I had rice crispies for breakfast- always the best way to start a day.
  2. The sky is doing some amazing things, which never ceases to amaze me.
  3. The weather has been lovely and I wasn't blown away (literally) on my way to school.
  4. We got homework in English Literature and yes- that makes me very happy.
  5. We played five a side football in pe and it put everybody in a good mood.
  6. I finished my media coursework ahead of time and got to spend the lesson helping my friend catch up.
  7. I'm looking forward to a busy weekend.
  8. The leaves crunched under my feet when I walked.
  9. My friend's little sister gave me a hug before I said goodbye, and she's the cutest little thing!
  10. I've managed to squeeze in some time to write this post, which is what matters the most.
I hope you all have a really lovely weekend!
Lots of love,
Marti xxx