Friday, 29 December 2017

Dear 2018, please kick ass

This year has been one of the most influential years of my life. To say it has been bad would be unfair, but to say it has been perfect would be untruthful. Influential seems a fair judgement.

It was the year of many adventures, ranging from pretending to be a witch in Boscastle to getting lost in a lingerie store in Reykjavik. It was the year of broken friendships, kisses and uneven French braids. It was the year I learnt what it meant to hurt, to love and to be afraid. It was the year I fell in love with the girl in the mirror, but feared the power of that statement also. 

What am I hoping for from 2018? I'm really not too sure.

I'm hoping to learn, to grow and to love endlessly. What exactly that means, I'm not too sure. I'm hoping for happiness, but with that I expect to hurt as well. 

I have one resolution for the new year, and that is to accept that in that moment, I am enough. I will never be perfect, and no amount of resolutions will ever change that. I do not need to change, simply continue to love, to learn and to grow. 

I wish the same for you.
All my love,
Marti :)

Friday, 22 December 2017

Things I'm grateful for this Christmas

  1. Paper crowns and fortune fish
  2. Snowy mornings of absolute bliss
  3. Button up skirts and wooly tights
  4. Sunset skies and darkened nights 
  5. Tingly fingers and frozen toes
  6. The happy days forgetting the lows.
Wishing you a happy and safe Christmas!
Lots of love, 
Marti xx

Friday, 8 December 2017

'Triggered' is not the word

  1. (of a mechanism) activated by a trigger.

    "a triggered alarm"
    • (of a response) caused by particular action, process, or situation.

      "a triggered memory of his childhood

  2. Person 1: "Stop clicking your pen."
  3. Person 2: "Alright, stop getting so triggered!"

Call it being annoyed. Call it being irritated. Call it being distracted. But do not- and I repeat do not call it being triggered

It's just another one of those words that's become so popular for the complete wrong reason. I find it ridiculous that people are still saying things like "I'm so OCD about things being messy" or "Those lines are giving me Autism". It's just wrong on so many levels.

I think the issue is that people are unaware of the severity of their actual meanings. The examples I gave are both diagnostic mental disorders that people have to live with on a day to day basis. Having OCD is not just liking to have things tidy, it's recurring, obsessive thoughts that haunt you. Similarly, you can't catch Autism like- what?!

I think I find the popularity of the word triggered to be the worst because there are people out there who do have triggers. Lots of them. Your unnecessary remarks and poking fun at related issues are only adding to the stigma and making people feel uncomfortable.

In short: just be considerate. I completely understand that it's difficult to always think over your actions, but if just a few more people learnt to bite their tongue, the world might be just that bit of a nicer place.

Linked below is a video I found on YouTube that inspired my interest for this topic. Make sure to check it out and let me know your thoughts in the comments or by email.
Lots and lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 1 December 2017


A little poem I wrote about how we're all such perfect, imperfect individuals. 

I can't do everything right,
I know it may come as a fright.
I won't always be there-
It's quite the scare.
I can't do everything right.


Friday, 24 November 2017

An Interview with The HandleBards

First of all, would you mind telling us a little about who The HandleBards are and what you do?

The HandleBards are a cycling troupe of actors who, every summer, carry all of our set props and costumes on the back of our bikes to perform Shakespeare at a variety of venues all across the UK!
How did the idea of combining Shakespeare and cycling come about? Would you say that it's one of the defining factors that makes your theatre group so unique?
It’s definitely what sets us apart from other theatre companies! It came from four friends knowing that they loved Shakespeare and adventures but thinking that perhaps walking across the UK would take a bit too long. So the next best thing was bikes. None of us were particularly bike savvy before our first tour but it’s safe to say that 5 years and 5 cycle tours later we are big bike fans now!
What's the longest distance you've ever cycled to reach a venue? Was it worth it when you got there?
At least 50 miles, we saw wild horses, had to do a detour to go to a radio station for an interview, nearly ended up on a motorway and we saw another cyclist get hit by a car. It was a very eventful day! The show was full (thankfully) and the audience were great but we were EXHAUSTED that night. It’s difficult for us to do big distances, because of all the weight we’re carrying we tend to go an average of 10-12 miles an hour but that was a LONG day!
After cycling such a way, does it drain you before a show? I was amazed by how much energy there was in your performance.
Yes and no. All HandleBards talk about their first ever 'cycle + show’ day and how exhausted they are. However your body is very flexible to it’s environment and eventually it adjusts and it doesn’t feel so bad - if anything it gives you an adrenaline rush!
Do you get many days off? What would the typical 'relaxed day' for you consist of?
During a typical HandleBards cycle tour we perform 6 days a week, cycle 5 days a week and get Mondays off. Days off we tend to explore the town/city that we are in and later in the tour we always go in search for a spa to just relax!
Would you say that your relationship with the people you perform with is part of what makes your performances so enjoyable?
The relationship between the actors is very important. For the first two years we were just a group of mates and we had a great laugh which was what made the shows so silly and fun I think. Now that we cast actors one of the things we look for is if there personalities will match and if they look like they will have fun together. Otherwise what are we doing it all for?
Where do you stay in between travelling to new venues?
We camp, stay in hotels, airbnbs and at the homes of people who see our show and are kind enough to let us stay - we meet some wonderful people through this and hear some amazing stories.
What would you say is the best thing about performing with The Handlebards?
Making people laugh. Having people say that we made Shakespeare accessible for them or for their kids.
On average, how long does it take you to have a show ready to perform? Learning huge chunks of Shakespeare text is difficult enough without having multiple roles!
We give ourselves 2 weeks to rehearse. We get the script two week in advance of this and try and get off book as much as we can before we go into the room. The shows are always a bit chaotic when we first go out on the road but that adds to the joy!
Finally, if there was one piece of advice you could give to aspiring actors, what would it be?
Just keep making your own theatre. Try out acting, directing, stage management, designing do it all (but give everyone else a chance too!) Getting a well rounded experience will set you up to be a good actor and a friendly one that appreciates everyone else around them - and being a nice person to work with is one of the best qualities to have as people will keep on hiring you!
Thank you very much for taking the time to answer my questions Tom!

Friday, 17 November 2017

Making time for YOU

Hey, you. Yes, you!
You really matter.
I mean it.
My mum said to me once: "Focus on the people that are being kind to you, and if nobody's being kind to you, be kind to yourself." My mum is a very clever lady.

A lot of us spend the majority of our time looking out for others. We drop our own important things to help other people with their important things because of how much we care for them. Sometimes this can really hurt. Sometimes these other people don't realise how much of a sacrifice you have made for them. Sometimes we don't realise it ourselves. 

When did you last do something purely for you? When did you last tell your body how much you love it? 

Sometimes it's important to be selfish. It's a lesson I'm still struggling to get my head around, but one I think we can work on together.

I've had a little think, and of course, have made a list of a few simple ways to care for yourself. 

❤ Care for your skin
❤ Eat well (cake is essential)
❤ Aim for at least eight hours zzz
❤ Have some time away from your phone
❤ Meditate
❤ Think positive thoughts
❤ Remember your worth

That's all, and I hope it was of some use!

Lots of love, 
Marti xxx

Friday, 3 November 2017

Whitby Goth Weekend 2017

Just a few pictures from the weekend :)
Lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 27 October 2017

Dear eleven year old Marti

Dear slightly older but still little Marti,

Things are a little confusing right now and your bubble is beginning to burst.The world is showing itself as a dark and horrible place and it's bringing you down with it. Marti, this is life. It's full of dark and horrible things, but you just have to look for the light.

There are wonderful people and things out there, you're just not searching hard enough. Some of the people you call friends aren't worth your time, but that's something you'll learn later. Put all your energy into your own happiness Marti and it will lead to a very happy place. 

The next few years are going to be difficult for you, but I have faith that you'll come out even more sparkly. Everybody is struggling, so be patient. Some final tips: don't cut your hair and love yourself as much as you love others. You are much a wonderful soul and you need to believe it. This webcam toy habit also really has to stop Marti, it's very embarrassing haha.

I've got your back kid ;)

Friday, 20 October 2017

"I'm a pusher Cady"

I hate revision.
I thought I'd put that out there before anybody gets the wrong impression. I also don't do brilliantly at school. There are some subjects that come easier to me, but also some that I really can't get my head around. 

It was our last day of term today and we got our reports. Although I'm doing okay; I think I could do a lot better. My teachers seem to expect me to do 'okay' and aren't really pushing me to do any better. I've realised that I need to be my own pusher.

I feel as though I'm scrambling around in the deep end, trying to keep myself from drowning. I'm predicted Cs or 5s  in most subjects, which puts me at the bottom of the higher tier. Those grades are still good, but I know in myself that I can do better. It's so easy to get caught up in a bubble of your own thoughts and not pay enough attention to the things that are screaming for your attention.

I'm not spending enough time  revising the subjects I find difficult, which I think is the main problem. That's why I've started scheduling my revision and prioritising weaker subjects. It's so important to figure out what works for YOU and to look after yourself. I'm telling myself this as much as I'm telling you as it's so easy to let your health slip when you're focused on something else.

Here's my schedule for tomorrow, just for some insight. I've tried to include a mixture of different subjects and formats of questions, whilst keeping breaks at an optimum.

·     Chemistry revision sheet
·         Break 
·         Physics revision quiz
·         English revision quiz
·         Break 
·         Physics exam style question
·         Break
·         English Literature exam style question

 I hope that this post has been of some use to somebody and that you all have a lovely half term!

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 13 October 2017

Reasons why I smiled today

  1. I had rice crispies for breakfast- always the best way to start a day.
  2. The sky is doing some amazing things, which never ceases to amaze me.
  3. The weather has been lovely and I wasn't blown away (literally) on my way to school.
  4. We got homework in English Literature and yes- that makes me very happy.
  5. We played five a side football in pe and it put everybody in a good mood.
  6. I finished my media coursework ahead of time and got to spend the lesson helping my friend catch up.
  7. I'm looking forward to a busy weekend.
  8. The leaves crunched under my feet when I walked.
  9. My friend's little sister gave me a hug before I said goodbye, and she's the cutest little thing!
  10. I've managed to squeeze in some time to write this post, which is what matters the most.
I hope you all have a really lovely weekend!
Lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 29 September 2017

Mute the Monkey Mind

my brain gets a little mUdDlEd
My thoughts allrollintoone and things 
get a little complicated.

But do you know what? That's totally okay. We all have a monkey mind telling us this and telling us that. What's important is how we control that monkey

One of my favourite ways to do this is by focusing on my senses. It can be tricky to play them all at once, which is why I picked three to focus on. Your focus senses could be completely different to mine: it's all down to your perception. 

SIGHT is the first on my list. Give your mind a break from the strain of whatever's bothering you and focus on what you can see. How many clouds are in the sky? What's beautiful about the person you last saw? 

HEARING'S next. Is there a song that instantly brings you back to a happy place? Create a playlist of some of your favourite pick-me-ups and have them ready to play when you need them. 

Last but not least: TASTE. Focus on how the foods you love taste and the way they make you feel. Are they sweet or are they salty?  Do they melt or do they explode? 

I hope this little post has been of some help and that you all have a really lovely day.
Image source:

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 15 September 2017

Dear six year old Marti

Dear little Marti,

I am extremely proud of you. You may not realise it right now, but you are going to go on to do some wonderful things. Right now, you're already a badass. Sure, your mum makes you wear glasses and an eye patch until lunchtime, but you take it in your stride. Secretly: I think you quite enjoy being a pirate. Your stories are the greatest and you always make people giggle. 'Marti, say cat.' 'Tat?'.

On Pirates and Princess Day, you don't want to be a princess, you're the most badass pirate in a flamenco dress that school has ever seen. You proved that when a teacher said: 'smile princesses' and you scowled at the camera. Moxie. So what if your princess baby brother turned out to be a prince? You still got to dress him up in lady's attire from Gran's trunk. Best. Sister. Ever.

In short, I hope you're enjoying every minute of being six Marti, becuase it doesn't last long. I think you're almost tall enough to ditch the booster seat now, but by the time you're older you'll never top 5'1. Life gets more complicated, but people become a lot easier to read. Everybody feels the same, no matter what front they put on.

I hope you like these pictures I dug out lovely. It makes me laugh that I found them in black and white- colour was a thing in 2007.

Lots of love,
almost 16 year old Marti xxx

Friday, 8 September 2017

Pens, pens, pens!

Things are a little rocky right now, and I'm afraid that I can't explain why. It hurts to say this, but it's a line that I can't step over. My blog has always been an outlet for how I'm feeling, but due to the nature of this problem: I have to take a step back and find other means of expressing myself. 

 As substitute, I thought I'd share with you another project that I've thrown myself into. While my sister is on holiday in sunny Croatia; I've been updating the social media at work with some jazzy photos that's I'm pretty proud of. I thought I'd share a few with you lovely bunch :)

Lots of love,
Marti xxx

Friday, 1 September 2017

Re: Two Goals for Five Weeks

Hello! I haven't got very long to write this post so apologies in advance if it's a shortie. You know what they say though: the best things come in small packages! This Summer has flown by and to be perfectly honest, I haven't known whether I was coming or going half the time. At the start of the holidays, I made a list of a few goals that I wanted to complete this Summer. As there's no time better than the present; I thought I'd share with you whether I've achieved them or not.

The first goal was to read as many books as I've felt like reading. This was a very easy goal and I'd say yes: I've definitely achieved it!  There have been a few times where I've felt distracted and struggled to focus on a book but there have also been other times where I've gotten really into a story. The next goal was to give myself lots of creative outlets which again, I think I have achieved. I've been spending a lot of my time writing this Summer, but have also found a lot of happiness through doodling and music.

That's all for now! Make sure to tell me if you achieved your goals (and whether you set them or not!)

                                                                        Lots of Love,
                                                                    Marti xxx

Friday, 25 August 2017

Health and Happiness

Sometimes, we look to the future a little too much for our happiness- we're all guilty of it. It may be as simple as thinking that we'll be happy once we've met a certain person or once we've done a certain thing. The truth is: we're surrounded by experiences that make us happy and by taking our attention away from the now, we're missing out! 

That's why I've decided to make a list of a few awesome things I've done, no matter how small.  Although the future is full of endless possibilities and new experiences, you have already made some incredible memories from opportunities you were lucky enough to grasp in what was then the present. 

Aqua zorbing
Mountain biking
Ice skating
Winning a ‘good for one go’ voucher at mini golf
Climbing a mountain
Sitting on the edge of an erupted volcano

Walking behind a waterfall
Swimming in the Blue Lagoon
Standing in between the Eurasian and North American plate boundaries
Taking a ferry from Dover to Calais
Seeing ‘The Jungle’ before the migrants were forced to leave
Travelling on a plane for the first time
Visiting Euro Disney
Eating snails in Paris
Climbing the Eiffel Tower
Visiting the Louvre, Notre Dame and Champs Elysee
Sleeping in a tent for a week
Going to a Christian camp
Acting the lead role in a play
Starting a blog
Going to a roller disco
Rock climbing
Losing laser tag
Writing to the Queen
Playing rock-it ball
Sleeping in a pigsty
Crawling through a hay bale maze in pyjamas
Visiting more castles than I can name
Riding Europe’s longest roller coaster
Making a jam sandwich blindfolded
Buying food from a service station at 2am
Watching the sun set and rise
Being veggie for two years
Spending the night at an aquarium 

I'd love to hear what you all have on your lists!

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx

Friday, 18 August 2017

Sandcastles in the Sand

A few pictures taken in TintagelPort Isaac, Padstow, Boscastle and The Cornish Coast :)

Health and Happiness,

Marti xxx

Friday, 11 August 2017

Thinking About The Future- An Interview with Bailey

Meet Bailey: Bailey is a student living in some village in the middle of nowhere with an unlikely passion for film and editing.

Bailey's Instagram:
I met Bailey almost four years ago and was struck by his ability to broadcast and edit videos soundly. We’ve supported each other over the last few years and I could not be happier to introduce you to him. Bailey works tremendously hard to produce quality content for his YouTube channels and is here today to tell us a little about his views on the future and what it brings.

1) Firstly Bailey, if you don’t mind, tell us a little about yourself. What are your hobbies and interests?

My favourite thing I can do is make movies. The whole process, from the recording to the uploading can never get boring. Apart from that, I
play video games, workout and eat.

2) It’s a common belief that there are three types of people in this world: people who look to the future for happiness, people who look into the past for happiness and people who focus their happiness on the present. Which one would you consider yourself to be?

Id definitely say I live in the now and take happiness from just doing something and getting it done but I do feel it's wrong to regret your past, as that's what got you to where you are today and you should be able to take a level of happiness from it. I can't really say much about getting happiness from the future because apart from with goals and aspirations I don't understand that mindset but happiness from goals happens in the now when you achieve it so my point is now invalid

3) At school we’re always being asked the same question over and over again: ‘what would you like to do when you leave school?’ Do you believe that this is necessary in today’s society? A society where the average amount of jobs held by one person before the age of forty is ten.

Knowing where you want to go is always a positive. If you can define where you want to be then you're halfway to doing it, you'll only have the hardest bit left (which is actually doing it) however not knowing what you want to do can leave you more open to take in suggestions.

       4) Jobs in IT are becoming increasingly popular. Do you think that this will result in the death of traditional jobs like postal workers and solicitors?

Definitely jobs are going to get taken over by robots so the people who once did them get to sit and admire what the world is becoming!

5) At risk of sounding like school, do you have any ideas for what you’d like to do in the future? Do you think that it’s important to have some thoughts on the matter?

I know exactly what I want to do. And it's a bonus to know what you want to do in detail but not knowing isn't a huge downfall because there's always people who'll give their opinions on what they want you to do whatever you want

Thank you very much for taking the time to answer my questions Bailey! 

Thanks for having me! :)

Health and happiness,
Marti xxx